And some others

Most are songs, but some are poems. [side note] The last few are from last year. Don't worry :P [/side note].


Broken and Betrayed


I feel broken and betrayed.
But somehow still the same as yesterday.
Fine, just fine in every way,
But I know that I’ve been broken and betrayed.
I hear Your name; It comforts me.
I know I’ll make it through,
Somehow; Some way.
You’ll take away my pain.
You’ll take it all away.

She lied in every way.
She took my sin and played a game.
She rolled it like dice.
It’s like a needle in the hay.
I said “She’ll pay the price.”
But then I think about You and Your forgiveness.

I feel broken and betrayed.
But somehow still the same as yesterday.
Fine, just fine in every way,
But I know that I’ve been broken and betrayed.
I hear Your name; It comforts me.
I know I’ll make it through,
Somehow; Some way.
You’ll take away my pain.
You’ll take it all away.

He beats me to the ground.
He curses and spits in my face.
He slaps me again.
But I act like he’s renowned.
But my love he disdains.

I feel broken and betrayed.
But somehow still the same as yesterday.
Fine, just fine in every way,
But I know that I’ve been broken and betrayed.
I hear Your name; It comforts me.
I know I’ll make it through,
Somehow; Some way.
You’ll take away my pain.
You’ll take it all away.

I feel broken and betrayed.
But somehow still the same as yesterday.
Fine, just fine in every way,
But I know that I’ve been broken and betrayed.
I hear Your name; It comforts me.
I know I’ll make it through,
Somehow; Some way.
You’ll take away my pain.
You’ll take it all away.


Dizzying


It’s overwhelming.
Captivating.
The way You hold me.
I feel Your embrace.
It’s something different.
Something fragrant.
The way You move me.
I feel Your love.

It’s dizzying the way You are,
What You do to me.
How You seem to be.
It’s unfathomable, Your love.
The way You romance me.
Pull me closer.

It’s alluring.
Mesmerizing.
The way You touch me.
I feel Your breath.
It’s something unique.
Something pleasing.
The way You move me.
I feel Your love.

It’s dizzying the way You are,
What You do to me.
How You seem to be.
It’s unfathomable, Your love.
The way You romance me.
Pull me closer.

I need You.
I want You.
I feel You.
I hear You.
I need You.
I want You.
I have You.
I have You.

(repeat bridge)

It’s dizzying the way You are,
What You do to me.
How You seem to be.
It’s unfathomable, Your love.
The way You romance me.
Pull me closer.


His Nail-Pierced Hands


So this is what surrender looks like
Scabbing wounds trying to heal.
Burdens lifted from my shoulders.
Trusting Someone more than real.

What have we come to?
What went wrong here?
Why didn’t we just let Him take the sin
With his nail-pierced hands?
What if we surrender
Our lives in the full?
Stop trying to dictate, to conquer.
Be humble, forgiven?

So this is what surrender feels like
No more scars; No more pain.
Holes in my denim jeans
From praying so hard here on my knees.

What have we come to?
What went wrong here?
Why didn’t we just let Him take the sin
With his nail-pierced hands?
What if we surrender
Our lives in the full?
Stop trying to dictate, to conquer.
Be humble, forgiven?

I’ve wondered many times what would happen.
If we would just accept forgiveness.
If we would let God cleanse us thoroughly.
I’m not sure and I don’t think I’ll ever see it.
Unless someone gives complete surrender.
Everyone gives complete surrender.
Then we all can be free.


Why didn’t we just let Him take the sin
With his nail-pierced hands?


Living Sacrifice


I cried.
You answered.
I called for help.
You said “Here am I.”

Simple words,
For my sweet Savior.
All I have to offer.
Here is my example
Of a living sacrifice.

I asked you,
“Will you be there?”
You said “I will never leave you,
Nor forsake you.”

Simple words,
For my sweet Savior.
All I have to offer.
Here is my example
Of a living sacrifice.


Kiss of Hell


Fogging up the glass
On your car’s front window.
With the shallow breaths your lying mouth breathes.
Suffering from your own splintered stakes
You created by yourself.
Hoping for something unfalse to
Save you from your breaking glass.

And now you don’t know who you are;
Where you are.
Staring at the shattered glass
You know your sins did break.
And now you don’t know why you are;
How you are.
Blowing frozen teardrops up to heaven’s gates.
You beg for freedom from your self-created chains.

Stopping traffic
On the road your soul can’t take.
With your hands on the wheel,
Wishing for more control of your paths
That you let Satan guide.
Attempt to understand where you started letting go.
Defense against your evil heart’s murderous state.

And now you don’t know who you are;
Where you are.
Staring at the shattered glass
You know your sins did break.
And now you don’t know why you are;
How you are.
Blowing frozen teardrops up to heaven’s gates.
You beg for freedom from your self-created chains.

And now you don’t know who you are;
Where you are.
Staring at the shattered glass
You know your sins did break.
And now you don’t know why you are;
How you are.
Blowing frozen teardrops up to heaven’s gates.
You beg for freedom from your self-created chains.

Locked inside the mental gate
Where you embrace pain
Of years gone by.
Now you have the knife at hand,
Cut yourself.
Blend in.
Pray for hope.
You hold your sorrow
Anyways.
Trapped inside the mental gate
Where you embrace pain
Of the un-real.
Now you have your gun at hand,
Kill yourself.
Satisfy
Your soul’s hunger.
“Not yet,”
You say.
Wait.

And now you don’t know who you are;
Where you are.
Staring at the shattered glass
You know your sins did break.
And now you don’t know why you are;
How you are.
Blowing frozen teardrops up to heaven’s gates.
You beg for freedom from your self-created chains.

Now you let go.
Let your
Bloodied Savior
Save.

Dropping death’s bittersweet kisses down to hell’s gates.
You let G-d break your rusted chains.


Untrue Apologetics


My dimmest shine
Held in the Divine
Holy Presence
Taking over my advantage.
Holding my breath.
Waiting for You to come.
Place breath in me.
Please let Your words flow in my mouth.
Be the settled peace spoken through me.
Black thoughts fill my mind.
Replace them with Your holiness.
Bitter tears rest on my eyelids.
While I wait for You to take them in.
My heart twists in knots as I wait for You.
My patience runs low and I hope for You.
I pray you hold me as I fall,
On my knees, bearing it all.
On my own, I plead for You.
Bloody bullets come from my unreal prayers.
Ending in a demented field of untrue apologetics.
Then an honest anvil takes a hold
And I realize I didn’t truly mean it.
Darkness grips my whole,
And I consume myself in torture.
Then You freeze the time-frame of the moment,
And I know I am somehow forgiven.